brittany

Fri, 18 Nov 2005 03:15:40 GMT

how does it feel not knowing what's going on in my life?
i think if i had a child, i'd want to hear about his/her day.
i'd want to hear about making pizza in first period,
paper mache in art, making pajamas in sewing class,
& how heart broken i am right now.
& how shitty i feel this very second.
& how i'm not being a bitch, i'm just acting
the only way i know how to act in this situation.
i think i'd ask, i think i'd put in some effort.
or maybe i'm just asking too much of him
& making a big deal of nothing.

i don't know, but things are sucking again.

Mon, 17 Oct 2005 22:18:57 GMT

A look, a laugh, a smile, a second
passes by & I regret it.
words just aren't right.
sometimes I just can't explain
all the ways you devastate me.
always on my mind.

Wed, 05 Oct 2005 22:43:21 GMT

yeahhhh, so i'm an idiot for ever getting myself into this.
this is pretty much repeating & yet i still continue it.
he told me that i'm not aloud to make stupid decisions.
but what if it's for the best.
i'm just waiting for a reason to stay.
because right now i don't know what i want.
& i don't know what is even best.
no one wants me to keep doing this.
they don't want to see me get hurt, i'm not hurt.
i'm just jealous. jealousy is such an easy emotion.
& i hate it.
um yeah. what a gay.

Thu, 08 Sep 2005 23:56:04 GMT

old pictures make me sad.

friend's only.

Tue, 23 Aug 2005 22:42:55 GMT

this is my personal journal where
i will write things directly out
of my diary.
i only added a few people to this.
you can try to add me but i won't be
adding everyone.

add my other journal:
i add everyone.

rules:
don't comment me AT ALL on ANY entries.
unless it pertains to my style of writing,
or unless i have pictures.
just read the entries.
don't tell anyone about what you've read.
word spreads around fast & i will find out
if you have told someone. it's that simple.
please don't take anything i write unless you credit me.
if i write about a certain person,
(i probably will not use names in here.)
don't tell them that they are mentioned.